When will it go away?

Some days I feel so empty.

I want to write about how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking, and the words are just not there.

I want me back.  I want to be able to remember things again.  Words.  When I’m trying to say things, and the words I want to use won’t come to me. Appointments. I have never been a person who uses my calendar on my phone to save events, but no, every single day I have something saved.  Call this person, print this paper, pick the kids up from school.  I still feel like I am in a fog.  Things feel slightly lighter, but my world still feels extremely small.

I just want it all to go away.  I just want it all to stop.  I hate every second of this feeling.

When will it go away?

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One thought on “When will it go away?

  1. Well, this may or may not be encouraging, but the fog stays on average for six months. And I found that timeframe to be true for me, even while in counseling, a support group and doing recovery work.

    The good news. I found me again, but a new and better me that I like so much better. Healing from sexual betrayal trauma has transformed me into a new woman, and yet I am more me than I have ever been. You will find you again.
    Keep hoping. You will get through this. (((Hugs)))

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