UGH!

Today was another couples counseling session.  Sometimes they are easy, other times they are difficult.  Today was a challenge, but at the same time, I feel like I was heard.  Both by our counselor and by my husband. I have spent a decent amount of recent years “taking one for the team.”  I didn’t want […]

Forgiveness??

How do you forgive someone when you don’t feel like they are sorry? I am a Christian.  And, as a Christian, I am called to forgive.  Whether the other person is sorry, or not.  But, I don’t know how.  I know that forgiveness is a gift I give myself and blah, blah, blah.  How?  How […]

Value

I hate the way I fumble for words so often. I want to write.  I want to talk about how I’m feeling, but I sound stupid.  I’ve read back over some of my previous blogs and I want to rewrite them or take them down. I want to write about so many things, but my […]

When will it go away?

Some days I feel so empty. I want to write about how I’m feeling or what I’m thinking, and the words are just not there. I want me back.  I want to be able to remember things again.  Words.  When I’m trying to say things, and the words I want to use won’t come to […]

What I want you to know…

I wish that you could understand the pain that I hide.  I wish that you could feel the anguish that I feel in my soul. I look at you every day and I know that you have no idea what I am feeling.  When we talk about this, there is no way that you can […]

What do you represent?

Every day feels just as hard as the day before.  I don’t trust my husband not to get into this situation again.  He doesn’t understand the boundaries I think he needs, he doesn’t think about things the same way I do.  I don’t want to say it’s selfish, but at its core, it really is […]

Is this all a dream?

I know we are all different.  All of our circumstances are different. But, do you ever feel like you MUST be the only person in the world dealing with your exact set of issues? I feel that way.  I know there are, unfortunately, a literal ton of women whose husbands have cheated.  And I am […]